ABOUT MYSELF and the writing of
THE INTELLIGENCE FACTOR
It was always sad when the adventure
came to an end. With every item that we packed for the return trip it would
seem to increase the anxiety building within us. Tempers began to swell and
irritation between siblings flared almost like spontaneous combustion. The
tension seemed to increase with the change in temperature as we descended down
the mountain toward the city in which we lived. The once and briefly found
spirituality that accompanied us in the mountains was now almost gone and the
emergence of a separate group of individuals unfolded. I found myself wanting
to say, “Children, if you don’t stop this bickering right now I am going to
turn this vehicle around and head back up to the mountains.” To which I could
imagine the response being, a loud cheer and joyful eruption of emotion from
the back seat, and this was just not possible, for tomorrow, I had to be at
work and they in school, and mom needed to bake something for a needy neighbor,
and then there were the animals that a nephew had been taking care in our
absence and he needed to be paid and so on and so forth. It was good however to
hold the thought of that possibility for even a few minutes longer. The horses
even seemed to sense the disturbance in the force. They began to rock the horse
trailer back and forth being irritated by something. We pulled over to a gas
station to fill up and check the horses. All was fine with them yet they seemed
to be telling me the same message. “Don’t take us back to the stall with the
dry feed and stale water, flies and stench. We loved it in the mountains, we
want to go back, and we don’t want to go home.”
The negative energy of the city seemed
almost to swallow us up as soon as we entered it. A woman cut me off with her
car and then flipped me off as though it were my fault she had almost gotten
hit by me. I saw a man leaning into the passenger side window of a stopped
vehicle and emerging with some little package of a white substance that could
have been powdered sugar but more likely drugs. He slipped it into his pocket
and looked around to see if anyone had been watching. He noticed me looking at
him yet didn’t seem to be threatened by what I was seeing. I stopped at a cross
walk and waited for a couple that walked in front of our vehicle who were so
obese that time seemed to pass in slow motion as they crossed the street. While
almost out of nowhere a jogger sped by, full of energy and looking at his watch
as if to say he were late for something of great importance. A man in a Turban
was walking a dog from Mexico
while holding hands with an Oriental woman. As we pulled up to the next light a
man in an old worn out army jacket held a sign, “War Vet, Need money to get
back home.” It reminded me of a TV program I once saw when a reporter followed
one of these street professionals from his street position to a location around
a corner and a brand new vehicle in which he threw his sign and drove off to a
not so deprived home and neighborhood. I didn’t know if this individual was
honestly in need or was a scam artist preying on the innocent. I drove by
quickly trying not to look him in the eye, to give the message that I didn’t want
to deal with this right now. On the next
corner there was a man with a shopping cart going through the garbage of a
local convenience store. Now there was someone who truly seemed to be in need.
During our return journey I was keenly aware of all the different kinds of
people. They were all sizes and shapes. They were a world of different faces,
colors and nationalities, religions and cultures.
As I reflected on their faces they all seemed to be saying the same kind
of things. I really don’t know why I am here. I am hot tired and irritated and
I would much rather be up fishing in the mountains than down here having to
contend with this life. I paused at a street light and closed my eyes. It
seemed but a second, only to be awakened by my children with embarrassment in
their voices, “Dad the light is green, people are looking.” We drove on towards home. I began thinking of
my life, and the experiences that I have had. There were some obvious pleasures
that I remembered that translated into unpleasant memories and triggered my
guilty conscience. I wondered how many people walk about with guilt hanging
over their heads, remembering things that they have or haven’t done. Religion
imposes this guilt upon us. I believe that is why so many turn away from
religion. Perhaps it is because they didn’t want to feel guilty anymore. Then
there are the victims of the world. Whatever the world has dealt them they feel
that it is unfair and they remain angry and victimized their whole lives.
Everyday is their personal fight against this self imposed foe.
The unpacking was and is always the
most unpleasant thing that one has to do after a pleasurable vacation. It seemed
to signify that it is over and reality must unfortunately begin again. One of
the boys noticed a new truck in the neighbors’ driveway and asked if we could
get one of those. My wife reminded me that we need a new shutter on the house which
the last storm had so rudely stripped off the upper floor window. The lawn was
so long that we would all have to take turns pushing the old mower through it, adjusting
it first on the highest setting and eventually lowering it after several passes
in order for the motor to keep running. There were thirty messages of
importance on the voice mail, sixty others from solicitors, and one from my
mother saying that Dad needed to be driven to the VA Hospital for new glasses
the day we got back. We were with out a doubt back to reality. Or was it? Or did
I make up this whole adventure with my family?
This got me to thinking, what is
reality anyway? If this urban life is what reality is all about, then what was
it up there on the mountain? For both worlds are not even similarly related.
One seemed even a bit surreal. The life in the city was the reality that we
spend most of our time in and therefore must be the real one, yet it was
obviously not the most pleasant one. I could do without the pain and suffering
that came from working with others, the pressures of work and the stress of
daily road traffic, and running here and there for whatever the reasons. Often
my wife and I would go to movies to receive relief from these pressures. Going
to the movies has been our favorite thing to do, if it were not for going out
to eat. The movies seemed to take us away from this urban reality and engage us
in adventures of a different source. Adventure
movies or Science Fiction were favorites, for they often would expand the
imagination to include a feasible yet imaginary existence outside of reality. Were
we living in a giant computer generated matrix, and being used somehow as
energy cells, fueling some robotics or artificial intelligence? Was and is our
universe based on some molecular structure and so small that it hangs around a
cat’s neck inside a little bell? To you science fiction buffs you will
understand what I have been talking about.
So what does this all mean? The story
that I have just related to you about the spiritual mountain and the urban life
is for me a metaphor of our lives. The world up on the mountain represents the
spiritual world of religion and depiction of the spiritual nature of man. It is
based on peace, faith, hope, charity and a reliance on God. The urban existence
represents the temporal or natural world and the carnal and physical nature of
man. It is based on fact, science, and relies on self with an absence of God. There
are some that feel comfortable in one of the realities but not in both. For me
they are both my reality and are a compound. Neither exists without the other,
just as one can’t experience peace without turmoil nor love without hate, the
spiritual does not exist without the natural.
Following my High School graduation I had the
good fortune of attending the University
of Utah to further my
education. In my studies at the University, I discovered that there was a world
much different than the one that I had experienced. In my religion and philosophy classes I
learned theories about deity. In my
science and math classes I learned about theories, probabilities and the
absence of deity. Many of the theories
were provable through experimentation while most were merely theories of what
the possibilities might be. During the
religious institute classes I was simply asked to have faith in God and
religion, and that I would know in my heart if it were true. The more I studied
the more I became confused and doubted myself and my feelings. So much time was
devoted to the proving of one or the disproving of the other that I, frankly
for a time, was disenchanted with both.
Then I came to my great epiphany. There
is in reality a perfect harmony between all things. I discovered that the truths of Science and
Religion were the same. In my mind at least there is this beautiful harmony or
compound of the two. I no longer see the battle between them that has existed throughout
my life and for that matter all history. There is this beautiful peace and
tranquility in my mind. I feel the spirit trying to tell me that it is ok to
believe in science and my natural mind trying to tell me that it is ok to
believe in religion. Everything Spiritual is and can be explained
scientifically and everything Scientific is and can be explained spiritually. Of
course there have been inconsistencies for neither side would nor could give me
all the truth. There are discrepancies and unsolved mysteries in the Bible AND in Science. Religion purposefully gives partial
truth in order that man may use his faith, and science purposefully ignores the
truths about a supreme being and his contact with man on the earth in order to
prove evolved man is supreme and needs only self and facts, not faith. Yet
there seems to be this peaceful coexistence emerging every where I turned. I
discovered that all truths remain as truths from generation to generation, or
for that matter, from eternity to eternity. Truths don’t change, only the
understanding of man changes and with that understanding or view do truths
appear to transform. Take for example how Newton ’s
truths have changed from his time until present. For hundreds of years his
teachings of gravity ruled until Einstein came along and changed them. Einstein’s teachings or beliefs are now being
changed with the String Theory. Misconceptions of truth, caused by ignorance,
ego, wants and desires have caused man to defile the truths and live lives of
self imposed perplexity. Through some investigation and study I have come to conclusions
that have helped me in my life, and I know that they will bring some
understanding and peace into your lives. In this work I will attempt to unify
science and religion through my theory called “The Intelligence Factor”. To
understand this one must understand what is “Intelligence,” and I am not
talking about intellect alone.
To
paraphrase Buddha, “One must have the right mind and the right view, in order
to produce the right behavior.” If one were coming from a mind of ignorance,
coupled with the wrong perspective, the possibility for one to behave right
would be impossible. Right behavior can only be attained if one were to have
the right view and right mind. Scientists behave in their way because they
disallow religious teachings, and Religionists behave in their way by
disallowing scientific knowledge. Neither behavior being right for both reject truths
found in the other. I do believe that it is easier for a spiritual person however,
to accept scientific information, than it is for a scientist to accept ideas of
deity, thus making it harder for men of science to come to this unification
which I have been searching for.
How then can
one know what reality is if one comes from a false premise and erroneous
perspective? The question becomes what are the truths that would embrace both? I
began by looking at both sides and trying to determine what the truths were. I
had a deep belief that there is a God and that the truths stated in the Bible
were true and yet one could not deny the truths that were being discovered by
Science. Dinosaurs did roam the earth and it did seem that the earth was older
than a few thousand years. I decided to start with the premise that there are truths
on both sides. The
confusion was how to recognize the truth. I was familiar with the scripture
that “and the truth shall set you free,” and what I needed most was that
freedom or peace within my mind. My thought was to accept it all, both science
and religion, and try merging or unifying both. What were the truths that both
had in common? It was important for me to not discard anything but go with it
all and try to make it fit rather than try to prove it doesn’t. In order to
find what I was looking for I had to go to the very BASICS of both science and
religion and there I found the truth that would explain everything to me. I
began with researching the very being of man, which included God, and who he
is, was and has become. I researched evolution and found few answers there but
I found the most answers in Particle Science. In the fall of 2003 my father
came up with an idea that the science of String Theory could possibly describe
for us the connection of both Science and Religion. I discovered that the
basics of both were similar. Both believe that everything is made up of two
particles. My book “Intelligence Factor”
will explain for you THE link between science and religion, the true nature of
man, where we came from, why we are here, and where we are going. It will only
give a brief explanation as to the evolution of the earth and its’ creation and
plan for there are numerous writings that will do that for you.
As you will discover, I come from a
rich LDS influence and am aware of some of the conflicts that have existed
between the scientific community within and without the church and the pure
believers that live by faith alone, past and present. I won’t attempt to
address any more issues other than the principle one outlined for you in this
introduction. I attempt to present only a theory to you and insert a little
Mormon doctrine for your education, so that you can view an abundant number of
similarities between String Theory and LDS doctrine. It is my theory alone and I
will not try to convert you to it as absolute truth nor believe it to be one
hundred percent doctrine. I will use quotes from church leaders and scriptural
records as found in the LDS church, and make an honest effort to tell you what
has or has not been revealed to the body of the church.
The unification of the ethereal and
the substantive comes to us through the teachings of the LDS prophets and the
physics of string theory and quantum mechanics. So let us begin. The
fundamentals of “Intelligence Theory” are this: There are two elements, taught
to us in religion, that have always existed and which cannot be annihilated;
“INTELLIGENCE” which is the energy of LIGHT (Synonyms: Light, Spirit, Life,
Intelligence, or things that act,) and MATTER, (which are things to be acted
upon). Science describes these same particles as ENERGY particles (bosons) and MATTER
particles (fermions). There is also the principle of TRUTH, which has always
existed and which are the LAWS OF
EXISTENCE, or the activity of or laws of action between particles. Included within
this is the law of opposition, which states that there must be opposition in
all things otherwise there can be no existence. This is known as the non-duality
of nature, and that “INTELLIGENCE,” has within it an opposition force and
cannot exist without it, and that when linked with “MATTER,” create a compound
and are within everything in the universe. “All things are circumscribed into
this one great whole.” This is the link that unifies and binds Science and Religion
together forever. You will learn that everything Spiritual can be explained in
Scientific terms and everything Scientific is likewise Spiritual.